i have a 3 month old cutie pie

my son is 3mths old today. time really flies by in a hurry.

i've been back at work for a month now. getting back into the work mode hasnt been too difficult for me. probably because it was busy the moment i stepped into the office --so i didnt have time to indulge in any "still in holiday" moods.

i do feel guilty coming back to work though. cos my mom is still here helping me with baby. as i've been telling my friends, i never knew being a mom would make me feel guilty all the time. i feel bad towards my mom and i feel bad towards my son.

now, i feel envious cos my son is close to my mom. hes not closer but i would say equally close to her as he is to me. but it is cute though to see him being close to his grandparents. my mom of course is an expert at parenting after 6 kids and 5 grandkids (plus also grandnieces and grandnephews). so she has this knack for talking nonsense and gibberish which etha*n responds to. he gurgles and chortles in reply. in fact hes also close to my dad. my dad makes it easy for kids to like him though. hes always telling jokes or taking them cycling or teaching them badminton or gardening or walking them over to the mamak shop for some roti canai. of course thats with the older grandkids lah hehehe. with etha*n, my dad switches the astro channel to 866 (i think) which is one of those radio channels (for old people) and dances with etha*n. so sweet hor?

my parents are leaving this weekend and then it will just be me, the husband and etha*n. i can cope with him but i wonder if i can cope with him AND with everything else in the house. i hope we get into a comfortable routine for everyone soon.